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Rafe Mendez, 53, a minor league baseball scout for the Cincinnati Reds, slumps into a scuffed vinyl bar stool at 9:17 PM, rain lashing the smudged storefront windows of the tiny Ohio dive bar he’d stumbled on after the night’s high school showcase game. His right hand aches from scribbling 17 pages of prospect notes, his boots are caked in stadium mud, and the bourbon on the rocks in front of him is exactly the right shade of amber. He hasn’t spoken to anyone but the stadium usher and the umpire crew all day, and he likes it that way. Eight years out from his divorce, he’s built a life that fits his stubborn, avoidant streak: 300 days a year on the road, no fixed address, no one waiting up for him, no fights about missed anniversaries or empty dinner tables.

He’s halfway through scribbling a note about the left fielder’s bad throwing mechanics when a woman slides onto the stool two spots down, orders a gin and tonic with extra lime, and asks if he’s got a pen she can borrow. He passes it over without looking up first, and their fingers brush—hers are warm, calloused at the knuckles, like she works with her hands, and he glances up on instinct. Hazel eyes flecked with gold, silver streaks threading through the dark hair pulled back in a messy ponytail, a waterproof jacket emblazoned with the local high school’s athletics logo stretched over her shoulders. She thanks him, nods at the Browns preseason game blaring on the tiny TV above the bar, and jokes that the bartender keeps forgetting to restock pens because he’s too busy yelling at the quarterback’s bad passes.

He snorts before he can stop himself, and the conversation unfolds easy, light, for ten whole minutes before she mentions her son, Javi, the 19-year-old shortstop who hit two home runs that night, and Rafe’s stomach drops so fast he nearly spills his bourbon. He knows exactly who Javi is: top 10 high school prospect in the state, the reason he drove six hours to this no-stoplight town that morning. League rules are non-negotiable: no unsanctioned contact with prospect family, no casual conversations that could be misconstrued as quid pro quo, no exceptions. Break it, and Javi could be ruled ineligible, Rafe could be suspended, even fired after 12 years on the job. He tries to pull back, goes back to his notes, but she leans over, points at the scribbled stat line in his notebook, and says, “That launch angle number on Javi’s second home run is wrong. I clocked it at 28 degrees on my phone, not 22.”

He blinks. No one’s ever called him out on his stats before, not even his boss at the Reds front office. He admits he’s a scout, says he shouldn’t be talking to her, and she smirks, shifting closer until her knee brushes his under the bar, the fabric of her jeans soft against his worn work pants. “The rule only applies if you’re offering me something for his signature, right? We’re just two people talking baseball. No one’s here to report us but the bartender, and he’s already three shift beers deep.”

He lets himself relax, and they talk for an hour, the rain tapping softer against the windows as the bar empties out. She tells him she’s a single mom, works as an orthopedic physical therapist when she’s not driving Javi three hours each way to travel ball tournaments, that she played second base in college and knows more about spin rates than half the dads who scream at umpires at Javi’s games. He tells her about blowing out his elbow at 26, ending his own minor league career before he ever got called up, about his ex-wife leaving him for a real estate agent who never had to miss holidays for road trips, about how he’s avoided dating for eight years because he doesn’t want to make anyone else feel as left behind as she did. She nods, like she gets it, says she hasn’t gone on a date in six years because every guy she meets gets weird about how much time she devotes to Javi’s career. Their shoulders are pressed together now, and he can smell lavender hand lotion on her, rain on the cuff of her jacket, the faint tang of lime on her breath when she laughs and her head tilts close to his.

The bartender bangs a glass on the bar to announce last call, and she pulls a crumpled napkin out of her purse, scribbles her number on it in the pen he lent her. She leans in close enough that he can feel her breath warm against his ear when she says, “I know you have to drive back to Cincinnati tomorrow to file your report on Javi. Call me when you’re done with all the official stuff, when there’s no more rule breaking to worry about. I make a mean chili, and Javi’s gonna be at a travel ball tournament all weekend next week.” She tucks the napkin into the inner pocket of his scout jacket, her thumb brushing the stubble on his jaw for half a second before she pulls away, grabs her umbrella, and heads out into the damp night.

He sits there for a minute, pressing his fingers to the pocket where the napkin is, feeling the crinkle of the paper through the thick jacket fabric, before he lifts his bourbon to his lips and finishes the last of it, the burn warm and bright in his chest. He flags the bartender for his check, already mentally rearranging his next week’s schedule so he can be back in town by Thursday.